Creating content

Deciding to quit my job and become a full-time content creator was one of the most difficult decisions I've made. Mostly because it's something I'm doing for me. I'm doing this for me, not because I expect to become famous and or rich, but because I want to lean into my creative side. My entire life I dedicated it to my career and being "successful" whatever that means, but I was never truly happy or content. 

I mean I was happy while I taught in the US, pero teaching in Mexico wasn't the same and honestly it made me lose the love I once had for teaching. Then working for a non-profit, was great, until it wasn't. I loved my job, but it was a bit demanding and I found myself not having time to do things I liked. I was always busy or too tired. 

I didn't have time to write, make videos, or even post on IG. 

I didn't have the energy to edit, or to paint. 

ODA helped me discover how much I love to paint and helped me fall in love with writing poems again, but working for them didn't leave me with much time. soooo I quit, I quit to fall in love again with my hobbies, and I am so excited to be doing so again. 

Editing TikTok and YT videos isn't always the most fun thing to do, and even creating them gets a little tedious, but I love it. Even if only a handful of people see them, it brings me joy to be in front of the camera and record random things. Editing sometimes brings me joy when I add something with a greenscreen or play with different sounds. 

Writing poetry has always been a safety blanket type of thing for me, and being able to share my poems now feels liberating. I never wanted to share my writing, and now I look forward
to sharing my poems with folks. 

It has never been about pleasing others or becoming rich and famous, it has always been about doing what I want, for me. 

It's about listening to what I want and healing my wounds from when people told me my hobbies were dumb or useless. 

So, here's to a year of creating random things for me, and for whoever enjoys them.