Where have I been?

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 Well, many of you already know, but my stepdad passed away in September. He had been in the hospital since July and things since then haven't really been the same. Add in a new job, and the never-ending pandemic I've just been feeling lost. I should be finishing my grades right now, but sitting here looking at and admiring my amazing husband I decided to write. 

To the amazing man that has helped push me these past few months, thank you đź’— You have been my rock and have helped me not get stuck in my depression. You more than anyone know the challenges of being away from family and had it not been for you it probably would've taken me ten times longer to keep moving on. We made our first Day of the Dead alter together and it is a memory I will treasure forever. 

To the amazing community that has been here for me checking in and just letting me vent, I love you all! From those that are here in Mexico to those that have reached out via my DMs, I truly appreciate you all. Thank you for being patient with me and for showing me that what I do matters. 

I have tried making a video about what's been happening and I just can't bring myself to do it. I wanted to upload it this past week and it just didn't. I have an old video from July before everything started happening and maybe that's the one I'll upload instead.  For those that have lost a loved one you know how I feel, and for those that have lost a loved one and you couldn't be there even more so. It was and still is, my biggest fear, to lose someone and not be able to be there. It happened, and it's been rough, but I know time heals all wounds. 

For now, I'm focusing on work and trying to live a healthier lifestyle. Hopefully, I'll get back to my regular groove and upload more frequently. 

Much Love! đź’›

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