feelings, anxieties, and random thoughts

 I have been struggling with life a little bit the last few weeks. I'd like to think that I'm okay, and I think from the outside looking in I am. from the outside it must look like I am thriving and life is great. but on the inside, I am not. I haven't written on here in forever, but now it's the only place I feel like I can let it all out. 

Let me not lie, life has been great, but I think that's exactly the problem. I feel like everything is happening all at once and I can't fully digest everything. 

Very much sounds like a privilege to have that kind of anxiety, and that's exactly the other side of the coin for me. Every day I cry over what is happening in Palestine. I question how people can go about their days without batting an eye. I was making blueberry pancakes the other day and I started crying thinking of all the children and people that do not have access to food or water in Palestine. How can people call this a war when so many innocent lives are being taken?! 

I feel so overwhelmed with so many emotions I feel like I can't process them all. I just want to roll up into a little ball and cry. cry until I fall asleep and just stay like that for days.  

How am I supposed to function and do my job with so much shit going on in the world??? 

How am I supposed to accompany folks when I also need help?

Quien cuida a los cuidadores?...