New Routines, habits, and some heartbreak

Life has been very interesting this past month and a half. I have gone from not having a job, to obtaining the job I've been wanting for the past year and from having less than 100 followers/subscribers on Instagram and YouTube to over 300. It may not seem like a lot to some folks but to me that is bonkers. When I made the channel I just wanted to vent and help people at the same time. I still just want to help those who are on the fence about moving, but with everything going on around me I haven't been able to upload as much as I wish I could. 

Let's start with work, it has taken me some time, but I think I finally have a routine down. My mornings are filled with grogginess and tea (I don't drink coffee much). Rico goes to the school he works at to virtually teach, and I stay home to have the WIFI to myself. My new students are amazing! I have some challenges because I have some international students who don't speak much English nor Spanish, but I love having them because I understand how they must feel. They remind me of my first few months here and how I struggled to understand people when they used professional Spanish, and to this day when someone speaks too fast, I still struggle to understand them. I love my coworkers and my new job, it is a lot of work and I am struggling with time management, but I'm slowly getting the hang of it all. I love working at this school and I am very thankful to be here. 

Since I started working full time again both Rico and I have been trying to create new healthier habits. We've been trying to meal prep, but have had our difficulties sticking to it. We've also tried to do some exercise since, like many others, we're now finding ourselves sitting down in front of a computer for 8+ hours a day. Although it has been challenging trying to eat healthy and do some kind of exercise, I am thankful my job has kept me busy. In the past week, I have been reflecting on all the blessings we have. 

I spoke with someone that is considering moving back to Mexico last month, and as we spoke she reminded me of how much I have grown in the past two years I've been here. She mentioned about one time I had spoken about being scared of turning the boiler on by myself, and I assured her I was fine now. I told her that the only thing I'm still scared of doing is driving, but I'm hoping that'll change in the future. After we spoke, I reflected on that conversation and how even a year ago I was still looking for a full-time job and didn't know as many people here as I do now. I can definitely say time has helped me deal with my depression and I spend more time laughing and enjoying "the moment" more than sulking about things. Unfortunately, it hasn't all been rainbows and roses...

This pandemic has brought so much hurt and tears to many families, both in an emotional and physical way. I have known of many families who have had financial struggles due to job loss and because they've been sick or had someone in their family get the virus. I have been thinking a lot of all those people that are all alone in those hospital beds. I recently found out someone very close to me and my family might not make it, and it makes me very sad, no one deserves to die alone. It has been difficult to function with work and I have ignored DNF (diary of a native foreigner) because they're all I can think about these days. I pray for everyone who has been affected, and I promise once my life isn't as much of a mess as it is now I'll upload another video.