kids playing adults
As much as I'd like to call myself an "adult" I don't really feel like one. Yes, I'm in my 20's, I'm married, and I work, but honestly I just feel like a kid playing an adult.
I remember when I was a kid, and played dress up with my friends and pretend; I had this friend I used to play "teacher" with. It's a foggy memory but I must have been around 5 or 6, and he was about 8 or 9. We lived in these apartments in Escondido, CA. I lived on the second floor and he lived in the floor below me. I was always a "bossy" child, and I would make him play teacher with me. He was the student and I was the teacher. That feeling I used to get playing that game is the same feeling I get now.
I have my students I tutor and give private lessons to, but some days I really don't know what I'm doing and just feel like I'm not helping/teaching them as much as I could. Granted I get super happy and emotional when their parents tell me they got a 100 or 90 on a quiz or test, and for a little while do feel like I know what I'm doing. Other than those few moments I really feel like I have no clue what I'm doing.
At home, I cook and try to keep the apartment clean (keyword TRY) but fail to do so. I don't mind cooking most days, but some days I wish I could just eat out every day. It's funny how as kids we think that once we're older we can buy and eat what we want, and no one will be there to stop us, but, now that we're older, we wish we had someone watching our expenses. If we're not careful we really do turn into child adults spending money on random things and not taking care of our health.
I have a constant battle with myself when it comes to doing the responsible thing and doing what I want to do. Honestly if I wasn't married and filled with bills to pay I doubt I'd do anything responsible with my money, and probably be even bigger than I already am.
Why didn't anyone teach me about adulting?
I remember when I was a kid, and played dress up with my friends and pretend; I had this friend I used to play "teacher" with. It's a foggy memory but I must have been around 5 or 6, and he was about 8 or 9. We lived in these apartments in Escondido, CA. I lived on the second floor and he lived in the floor below me. I was always a "bossy" child, and I would make him play teacher with me. He was the student and I was the teacher. That feeling I used to get playing that game is the same feeling I get now.
I have my students I tutor and give private lessons to, but some days I really don't know what I'm doing and just feel like I'm not helping/teaching them as much as I could. Granted I get super happy and emotional when their parents tell me they got a 100 or 90 on a quiz or test, and for a little while do feel like I know what I'm doing. Other than those few moments I really feel like I have no clue what I'm doing.
At home, I cook and try to keep the apartment clean (keyword TRY) but fail to do so. I don't mind cooking most days, but some days I wish I could just eat out every day. It's funny how as kids we think that once we're older we can buy and eat what we want, and no one will be there to stop us, but, now that we're older, we wish we had someone watching our expenses. If we're not careful we really do turn into child adults spending money on random things and not taking care of our health.
I have a constant battle with myself when it comes to doing the responsible thing and doing what I want to do. Honestly if I wasn't married and filled with bills to pay I doubt I'd do anything responsible with my money, and probably be even bigger than I already am.
Why didn't anyone teach me about adulting?
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