Late night thoughts
Most nights I am able to sleep just fine, but then there are nights where I can't sleep at all. I envy my husband because he is sound asleep, snoring away while I am laying there staring at the darkness while my mind runs a mile a minute. Here is a list of some of the random thoughts I sometimes have.
1. What if I don't wake up tomorrow? how would my husband react? how would my family react?
2. Am I as good a teacher as I think I am?
3. What should I cook tomorrow?
4. What am I going to teach tomorrow?
5. Should I wear a colorful shirt tomorrow or should I stick to my usual black ones?
6. I wonder how my hair is going to behave tomorrow?
7. *I hear a noise outside* I wonder if that was a motorcycle, fireworks, or gunshots?
8. Will I ever get some sleep?
9. I wonder how late I'll wake up tomorrow.
10. I'll listen to my bedtime stories for grown-ups and hopefully will fall asleep.
My mind tends to wander a lot, and I try to pray and meditate to go to sleep, but some nights (like today) that just doesn't work. I like listening to a podcast called "Nothing Much Happens". They're bedtime stories for adults and that usually does the trick, but there are nights that no matter what I do I simply can't sleep. There have been days where I'll fall asleep around 3-4am and won't wake up until sometime past 10am.
Anyway, don't read to much into my midnight thoughts, they're there all the time. I live in front of a cemetery, so death is always on my mind. I hope whoever reads this doesn't have as much trouble sleeping as I do.
1. What if I don't wake up tomorrow? how would my husband react? how would my family react?
2. Am I as good a teacher as I think I am?
3. What should I cook tomorrow?
4. What am I going to teach tomorrow?
5. Should I wear a colorful shirt tomorrow or should I stick to my usual black ones?
6. I wonder how my hair is going to behave tomorrow?
7. *I hear a noise outside* I wonder if that was a motorcycle, fireworks, or gunshots?
8. Will I ever get some sleep?
9. I wonder how late I'll wake up tomorrow.
10. I'll listen to my bedtime stories for grown-ups and hopefully will fall asleep.
My mind tends to wander a lot, and I try to pray and meditate to go to sleep, but some nights (like today) that just doesn't work. I like listening to a podcast called "Nothing Much Happens". They're bedtime stories for adults and that usually does the trick, but there are nights that no matter what I do I simply can't sleep. There have been days where I'll fall asleep around 3-4am and won't wake up until sometime past 10am.
Anyway, don't read to much into my midnight thoughts, they're there all the time. I live in front of a cemetery, so death is always on my mind. I hope whoever reads this doesn't have as much trouble sleeping as I do.
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